Day 4- Chocolate Chips

January 2, 2025

I am coming to the end of day 4 sugar-free! Yeah, congratulations to me.  I know the day counting thing works because, in the past, when I have stopped counting is usually when I break.  Anyway, I woke up this morning with a lot of energy and not very hungry, which I thought was a good sign.  I only had my banana mid-morning and wasn’t craving much of anything.  But in reflecting, I start most days that way and then my willpower eventually breaks down.  And this is exactly what I am fighting right now!

I spent the afternoon painting the outside of the house-  I swear this is the last home that I live in that I will paint- but I think I said that last time too.  Anyway, nobody wanted dinner so I decided to do some salad, steak, and potatoes.  This is a hearty meal by any standards so why am I craving dessert?  I always crave dessert.  I have the obsessive desire to cap any meal off with something sweet but this rings especially true after dinner- when the day is done and my willpower is gone. 

I traditionally find myself rummaging the pantry for anything that’s sweet, but not fruit.  My wife and stepdaughter usually have some semi-sweet chocolate chips on hand for baking.  They use it to make a little snack of sorts with raisins, shredded coconut,  nuts, and melted chocolate amongst other things.  Yep, sorry to share- another thing I like to grab if I see nothing else-  just a few chocolate chips will satisfy me and maybe no one will notice.  Sadly, in moments of desperation, I have been know to have a spoonful of brown sugar.  

Tonight, I have planned ahead and have some green apples (always green) and fresh peanut butter.  The peanut butter I love the most has no sugar-  It’s the kind you make yourself at the grocery store and put in a little plastic cup.  This snack is a true saving grace for me.  It is the perfect healthy snack, although tonight, it is seemingly unnecessary after the meal I just ate.  We’ll see if my cravings can decrease over time, but today I just shoved more food in my face without sugar- not exactly the level of self-discipline I am seeking.